Personality can't be aware of itself; awareness and personality are two different things. Consciousness can be aware of personality, but personality is not aware, personality is simply information in a mental program, is the existence of information in the mental system, the unconscious mind.
There is no such thing as an "aware Alan", the very idea of "Alan" is an identity, a result of information that the mind received in the past: totally conditioned, totally blimp. Awareness can't be Alan, and Alan can't be Awareness.
So Alan doesn't have a consciousness for himself, but the universal consciousness is aware of him.
Alan is not me, and "I" is not awareness, because awareness is not personal, awareness is not about you and me, this distinction dosen't exist in true awareness.
Only in the plane of information can we recognize the idea of "myself", but this is the illusion of identity, the identification with the psychology, with the thoughts, with the personality, or with Alan
Ego is the illusion of "I," the sensation of "myself." The principal discrimination in the universe is the feeling of being distinct from all other things.
Meditation turns off the system, turns off the mind, and turns on awareness.
...But who turns these things on or off?
Can we do this? Or is it only an illusion?